As most of you know I participated in the Kentucky Derby Mini marathon for the second time. We do intervals my BFF and I. One minute run one minute walk or maybe 2 or 3 minutes run to make up time. But, we are runners none the less.
As I was thinking about this race and what it meant for me, I have concluded that it is determination that gets you through the hard shit in life. The will not to give up but, know something better is right around the corner. (The finish line) :)
This race I was better prepared for. I had made it a priority to run each week at the gym and weekends outside no matter what the weather. The first 3 races of the year were a test for sure. A 5K was like seriously cold like 25 degrees cold. The 10K was a mist of rain the whole race mixed with cold temperature. Last but, surly not least the Papa John 10 miler... it snowed. Yep, snowed not just a little but, by the time we finished we had ice on our hats and jackets. So, we had our fare share of "bad weather".
It was nice to wake up and the sun was shining and it was cool but, not bitterly cold. No jacket (less to weigh me down) just 2 shirts. It was cool at first but, the breeze through the whole race was refreshing. The Universe put us through hell and then she said ok "You have proven yourself, you guys really are runners". Here is your nice weather. THANK YOU!!!
This race was so different then last year. Last year we were running on pure adrenaline!! We were so excited, ready and pumped to do it!! Even after the 2 hour rain delay. lol The excitement and not knowing what to expect kept us going. But, this race.... yeah it was TOTALLY not like that.
For those that have birthed kids this is what it reminds me of. Bare with me. Delivering your first child it is all excitement, thrills, and just ready. But, with the 2nd one you remember. You remember how hard it was, how much it hurt, how tired you were. You remember all of this. So, for me it was like that. lol I remembered.
I was focused from the get go on this one. I just wanted to get started so we could finish. I just wanted to get my banana and go home!! Yes, I run for the banana and the bling yeah, the bling too.
I was proud of myself the whole race was calm and I didn't hurt. I was thinking I was hurting and then I would have a conversation with myself. See, that is the only person you can talk too. Yes, I had my BFF but, we had headphones in and taking them out is a lot of trouble so we just run talk later.
Now, I am having this conversation with myself and telling myself to relax and I am not hurting or tired. I am determined to stay positive because complaining only makes it worse. right? So, in my head I am thinking about all the other runners. There are people that are obese that are KILLING IT!!! I put it into perspective and push on. In my head I am cheering each of them on. "YOU GO GIRL" "YOUR AWESOME MAN" putting my good vibes out to them along the way.
We are doing great!! Then, the wall shows up. Yep, my workout Peeps know what I am talking about. It feels like you can't go one step farther. "THE WALL". I hit it in mile 12 heading to the finish line. I wasn't hurting just tired. Legs were not wanting to go. I can hear Joe (my hubby) in my head telling me to focus on the music. Stop thinking and listen to the music. That's what I did. I was lost in the music and the next corner we turn is the finish line. WE CAN SEE IT!!! YYYEEESSS!!! I have never been so happy to see a finish line. We run, we run until we finish. Tradition for us is holding hands and finishing together. I grabbed her hand and started to feel the tears well up in my eyes. This race was so much more emotional then the last. I am sure there are ugly face pictures of me at the finish line trying to hold back the tears. It was a great race and I will be doing it again next year if the Universe allows me too. Thank you Universe for a beautiful day and the courage and strength to finish.
I didn't start this running journey until I was 44 years old. It is never to late to start something new. Just stay determined and enjoy it. You will be just fine.